I am acutely aware of your feelings and and respect your views so I will not willfully do anything to hurt you.
I expect that I will remain in contact with Jackie but the frequency will reduce further.
As I mentioned, I received a call while I was eating my pies and drinking my milkshake. Due to the dodgy line quality it dropped out several times and Jackie had to keep calling me back. As a result it was a stop-start call all the way back to work. When I got here I was already way later than I expected then my new boss .
I did not forget about you and in fact I was trying to politely get her off the phone so that Ic ould call you and find out how it went with Comic Book Guy. She was very down and so it made it harder to get away without appearing completely rude and insensitive (yes, you will say that I have no problem treating you that way, oh well)
Instead of calling you I actually came to see you. Becuase, yes, I am concerned.
There has not been many recent phone calls. Saturday was a call to see if I was free, which I wasn't so today was the eventual chat. It's not a regular thing at all, in fact once a month would be an exaggeration.
I was planning to tell you at lunch which I did do.
We are not that close, I have many friends who are closer, and some of them are woman. IF she comes back to Australia it is unlikely she will return to Newcastle but if she does I indeed to carry on as we are now. NOT as we were. That fling ran it's course - until July 2006. Aspects of it were resurrected from time to time before things started up with you and has not happened since. And I do not want it to resume, I have no desire or interested in it resuming and it WILL NOT RESUME. Either here or remotely.
I didn't know that grandmother at all. As mentioned she is short of friends and sadly, I am one of the people she turns to to share good and bad news - as a friend. And if friends can't provide comfort or support in times of need then they aren't friends.
When you are in this mood, I cannot get through to you. No matter what I say you will read something untrue or distorted into it to suit your darkest fear. You are scared of what COULD happen - and that's fine, I understand that cos we all have the same fear. But you also have the choice to stop this negative slide into something that will only waste time and spoil our night
Please don't make up shit about what hasn't happened and won't happen, life is too good for that.
I hope you are still coming for dinner. I'm leaving now and hope to see you at 8. I won't have access to the email until then so please don't expect any responses
I have been in meetings all afternoon and as usual I am struggling to keep up. Since my teleconference ended at 5:30 I have been writing this email. I have not been ignoring you. Although you will no doubt choose to believe otherwise.
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